Having never successfully completed a New Years resolution, I decided to not even bother having one this year. What you’ll come to learn about me is that I’m the type of person who is obsessed with self-improvement. I’m a self-help book, Ted talk junkie! There’s one major problem though … I just can’t follow through!
It’s taken me 37 to realise that I’m more in love with the idea of change, than the actual change itself. What I’m trying to say is that in my head, I love to think about all the ways I can be better, but in reality – I’m just too damn lazy to do any of it.
Don’t get me wrong, I get all excited when I come across a new idea. I’ll buy a new notebook to log my progress and quite possibly some new clothes so I can look the part. I’ll order that new exercise DVD that is going to change my life. I’ll take my measurements. I’ll tell all my friends and family about my grand plans and I’ll even get started!
But something happens. I’m not sure how or why but generally, a few weeks down the line… everything grinds to a halt. The beautiful new notebook starts to gather dust and then somehow finds it way back on the bookshelf, never to be opened or written in again. The DVD sits by the Xbox, waiting eagerly to played. The new clothes, become old clothes… without ever having had the opportunity to look the part.
It usually takes another year, 10 new self-help books, another expensive notebook and another resolution to get this machine into gear again, only for the exact same thing to happen!
I cannot tell you how many notebooks I have with the first 10 or so pages completed and the rest of them completely blank! I have to face up to it, I’m full of shit… so why bother with another resolution? Things can’t grind to halt if I never get them started in the first place, right?
But something just doesn’t feel right! I’m battling against myself. I can’t just break this habit of a lifetime… I need a purpose. Something to aim for. Dammit, I need a goal, a challenge, something, anything! Without it, I have no hope.
You see, for as long as I have hope…. anything is still possible. I am a dreamer, a believer and that’s the fuel that lights my fire.
This is the first time in my life I’ve written a blog and shared my private thoughts, publicly. I don’t even share them to this extent privately. I’ve never had a diary and I barely comment on friends Facebook posts because… well, I guess I’m not comfortable being me. Anyway, I’m not saying this for pity party. My point is, I’ve decided that this year is going to be different, that I’m going to be my most ‘authentic self’ otherwise known as the ‘real’ me.
It’s time to put myself out there, warts and all. That means being honest with me and with you. The only way I can do that is to hold myself accountable.
It’s gone mid January, so the time for a resolution has passed. I considered doing a 21 day challenge every month for the next 11 months. They say if you do something for 21 days, it becomes a habit and is likely to be something that stays with you. I tried this a few years ago and kinda lost steam after a month or two (you’re seeing the pattern now?). I guess I just wasn’t ready for it.
I thought about doing 30 day challenges but that seemed a little wimpy, especially if it was the only challenge I was going to do this year (despite all my good intentions, this is realistic possibility). I did some googling and came across a 100 day challenge. The challenge was simple, take 1 picture a day of something that makes you happy every day for 100 days. Easy enough? Well, maybe for a week or two but I could really see myself struggling with this after a month or so. I guess that’s the point though, right? Practice the attitude of gratitude and all will be well in your world.
I brain stormed this idea with my brother and sister for a few minutes and realised it wasn’t quite right for me, not yet anyway. I liked the idea of a 100 day challenge but just not this challenge. My brother said something that really struck a chord with me, “if you’re not excited about it at this stage, before you’ve begun… it won’t work”. He can be very wise sometimes, that brother of mine.
Ok ok, what am I excited about? Ermn, yeah.. turns out, not a lot.
But I do really enjoy reading all these self-help books and stuff about the Law of Attraction etc. Recently, I’ve started listening to Tim Ferriss podcasts and was intrigued by his 5 minute journal.
Great Scott! I think I have it. After literally thinking about this for 20 seconds, my challenge was born! Why not combine all of the above and in the process, test out these theories? So here it is, my;
100 Day challenge:
As of 22 January 2016, for the next 100 days I will:
a) Write a five minute journal each morning.
I came across this idea via the Tim Ferriss Show. Tim can explain it far better than I can so check out why I think this is a good idea here
b) Meditate for 10 minutes every day. This is 10 minutes any point during the day.
We are inundated with information about mindfulness and how meditation can change your life. It’s worth a shot, right?
c) Visualise the life I want for 5 minutes each day.
I believe in the Law of Attraction. I believe in visualisation. The problem is that I’m just too lazy to mentally make things happen. But what if I visualised what I want out of life, every day for 100 days… what will my life look like at the end of this challenge? I commit to writing a post each day telling you exactly what I’m visualising each day. Let’s see if any of this stuff really does work!
Will I make it to day 100 and what does that day hold for me?
Wish me luck and follow my journey here, at day 1- 100!